Cleaning Out My Closet

Last night, I went through a section of old clothes in my closet ... and realized that I was honestly just holding on to a lot of my clothes that used to fit me when I was super skinny… because of my eating disorder at the time. 

Sometimes I really miss my body being that way. 

And it’s hard not to always compare myself to my friends who all have rockin’ bods.

But it’s unrealistic for me to think or believe that I should be able to fit into clothes that I wore seven years ago. 

Ever since, I have been mostly recovered. Anyone who knows me knows that I would wear sweats or leggings paired with a comfy flannel or hoodie any day over anything presentable. 

I wear clothes that I feel comfortable in, which is OK.

But I also hold on to clothes that used to fit me when I was hurting myself years ago and I have come to realize that this is unhealthy. Keeping those clothes made me miss my eating disorder. I used to look back and think to myself like “wow… I can’t believe I used to fit in to that… it’s so tiny,” but I know that’s not fair. 

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Growth occurs in discomfort. 

And I needed to take that next step of removing the items and people who left a negative connotation in my life. 

With acceptance, there has to be a little bit of motivation and urge for growth.

Comfort can kind of be a negative thing, because then you can be set in your ways. 

And those ways can sometimes be damaging or even set you back after some time. 

So this is just a non-judgemental encouragement that acceptance should be paired with goals and actions to find growth and healing.